Hey all, long time no talk.. see.. hear... whatever xD
 It's simple really, I've had work lately. Then my Nana passed away [may she rest in piece] <3 and that was a bit hard on me. So that took up a week of my time dealing with all that. Other than that, I really can't explain why i've been gone so long. Mhmm. Naughty me.

Annnyyywaaayyysss. I'm back, let's see how long that lasts. I really don't have much to talk about today. Usually I have some giant long thought bubble thing going on. My mind is blank at the moment, so i'll just update later. Hope your all doing well!

"Someone told me once, that she believed we make life hard for ourselves by keeping things bottled up inside. Whether it be due to shame, embarrassment, fear, pride or some other emotion we don't share the things that are on our hearts like we should. We wallow in them and never realize that everyone else feels the same way. Our conflicts, our dreams, and the things that make us who we are should be free to be spoken out loud."



http://emixoo.deviantart.com/art/SHOUT-IT-OUT-71241810

 "How do you know that you are alive? Is it because you breathe? Because you eat, dress, and walk? Is it something more profound like purchasing a dream? Or is it something else, something deeper that only you know? And what happens when you lose this something? Do you simply die? Or do you go on like a living corpse? Once you're broken, once this precious thing is broken, can you ever come back to life?

Wounds of the flesh heal and fade but wounds of the heart leave scars that never disappear."



it made me think. wanted to share. credit goes to  http://yaoi.y-gallery.net/user/tsukiyue/


amazing.

'eyy, so how is everyone? things have gone considerably better for me. nothing has really happened though. Everything is as it should be really, fucked up and full of drama. just the way people hate it ^-^  hmm, aren't i glad for things to be back. i wasn't sure i could handle anymore of the drama-free-ness of everything.


[[totally being sarcastic and cynical]]

...my leg hurts, no idea why but this is besides the point.


ehhhh, well i've got a few ideas for picture ideas to post on y!gallery and dA. whooop whooop. uhhmm, i got a line art almost complete that's of Naruto. weeeee, how original, ne? actually that reminds me, i might be posting another couple pictures of my original character Ryuu or i might create a new one. i haven't decided yet. eh, what ev. :]

well i must disapear for now, parents are calling for things to get done. how dumb.

 Things are deffinitly not going well for me lately this month. So much drama among some of my friends at school, all of that lame he said she said bullshit that people need to stop doing because they sound like little kids. Come on, we'ere adults [[well most of us are.]] start acting like one. i'm so sick of it, i can't handle the stress of dealing with that drama, the homework, and the news that i just recieved about 20 minutes ago.

My nana might have had a stroke, but they don't know. i know she's old but she doesnt deserve all the pain she's been through the last two months. i feel just so guilty because i know for a fact that i haven't gone to see as much as i should have. i have barely seen her at all, and i know thats on me, on my part and no one else's fualt but it just gets to me. i broke my promise to myself that i would go see her more, it's just that i don't have ANY time. It just stings because if i lose her, then that guilt will still be with me every day. She's my nana, i love her i don't want to lose her. This news hurts my mother also since it's her mom. She trys not to break down in front of the family but i can still hear her when she retreats to her room and it just tears at me. She trys to be strong for the rest of us, but that doest work because sometime's you just need to break down and let it all out. i've learned that a few months ago.

Schools fine, the people at school aren't. i can't deal with all the drama and bullshit they all dish out and seem to love to give to other people. the females in my school are visicous little things, they don't hesitate to cut you down when your back is turned. Same with the guys, they also just seem that they like to verbally abuse other kids in the school. i'm sick of it, i'm sick of it all. I can't wait to be gone from here, to move out, to be free from this. I know i won't completely be free from it, but it doesnt matter. i don't like it here anymore. i want out. i want to get out now, but i can't. i still have a couple more years here.


anyways, thats all for now. i just needed to rant and get it all out. needed to say things that i've kept away. none of you really needed to read this, you don't even have to comment. i just needed an outlet.

It's such a heavy, meaningful word, isn't it? To be a person that saves the day. Hero. In our world, it's the only way to die without being forgotten. Die a hero.

Basically, die young and powerful, die protecting your teammates, protecting konoha, and get the mission done.

It's a tall order, being a hero, dying a hero. Hero. Kami, who made that word up? They ought to be strangled. Jeez. The idiot obviously never thought of the consequences of coming up with a word like hero. If you're not a hero, you're just a nobody, or you're known for all the wrong reasons."

i'm going to have to agree with what it says, because really, what are you if your not a hero? not many people will recognize you otherwise. it's just something that had me thinking and i thought i would share it.